yesterday at the gym. 4 miles. 40 minutes. a new record for me. though honestly, my running friends, i know this isn't so great.
i was in the "zone" i guess you could say. and i wish that would happen more often, because most of the time when i am running, the only thought running through my mind is "when is this going to be over?" i wish i could get to that "happy place" that runners talk about. is this even real? unfortunately the days that i am motivated to run i am usually motivated by anger, frustration, stress - hence, even on my good days i am never running in this (fictious, i'm convinced) bubble of happiness.
i'm not giving up though. each time i go to the gym, i am hoping to enter this endorphin-filled, alternate reality, and/or plane of existence that apparently is out there. possibly today?
just as a backup though.. i am going to watch Fight Club. right now actually. i am going to go out to my living room and force my friends to watch it. & i am pretty sure they will give in. because i have had an overwhelming past few days. & i'm convinced anything Chuck Palahniuk will always take me to a place better than i will ever find while running. plus edward norton is a babe.
i was in the "zone" i guess you could say. and i wish that would happen more often, because most of the time when i am running, the only thought running through my mind is "when is this going to be over?" i wish i could get to that "happy place" that runners talk about. is this even real? unfortunately the days that i am motivated to run i am usually motivated by anger, frustration, stress - hence, even on my good days i am never running in this (fictious, i'm convinced) bubble of happiness.
i'm not giving up though. each time i go to the gym, i am hoping to enter this endorphin-filled, alternate reality, and/or plane of existence that apparently is out there. possibly today?
just as a backup though.. i am going to watch Fight Club. right now actually. i am going to go out to my living room and force my friends to watch it. & i am pretty sure they will give in. because i have had an overwhelming past few days. & i'm convinced anything Chuck Palahniuk will always take me to a place better than i will ever find while running. plus edward norton is a babe.
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